Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Ive been thinking kinda seriously that i shld take up some kinda skills...but ive no idea wat exactly im interested in.
I hate thread and needles since skool time..and i remember during one of my HomeEconomics lessons , i had to sew a wrap skirt, so i got my mom to help... ended she sewed everything for me. The skirt was then selected for an exhibition during one of my skool event. This is sooooo lembu punya susu, sapi dapat nama.

I cant think of anything else other than sewing, cos that's the closest. My mom sews well. She used to do tailoring of baju kurung for others , but few years back, she stopped doing so,due to health and now she only sews for herself , my sis , me and of cos, my daughter. My mom is so much creative compared to myself. Maybe im just plain lazy...

I havent tell my mom abt my "great idea" yet.... i shall wait till she comes back from Brunei.
It's the best time to learn i suppose,bcos, kids will be on holidays (no need to rush for time) and my mom can be my great teacher...the place can just be at my mom's....how wonderfully convienient if i get this idea fulfilled. Hmmmmm, we shall see.

Monday, October 29, 2007

That's a wrapped !

Y'day was the last HariRaya visiting for us.
If not bcos of my cousin's open house y'day, we are soooo done with the visiting since last week.
So, we left her place around 5pm and i send my parents home.
The kids wanted to hang out at my mom's place for awhile , so hubby and me went home to change , freshened up a little bit and rest before i get my hubby to fetch the kids back after maghrib.

Then, i r'cd phone call from my father's clan. They wanted to come to my place. Yes! the came in clans.... abt almost 20 of them. ! It's amazing to see how thier kids have grown to teens and don in nice kebayas and baju kurung complete with accessories and little colours on their faces...all so sweeet (for the girls of cos). It's only last year i saw them and now they've grown taller and bigger in size than me (for the boys)....and how i notice i didnt even grow all these years ! :P

Friday, October 26, 2007

It's right after subh...i looked out at my window and inhaled the crispy fresh air.
From outside my window i could see beautiful formations of clouds with moon lit to complete the beauty of nature.

Friday, its the finale ! Like finally.!
The last exam paper for my son and with HIS permission, by end of the day , i shall complete my 6 days sunnah fasting and that also means ive completed my kadha' for this year too. Yayyy!

Will be heading to Geylang with my mom and sis later, as my mom needs to get some stuff that she wants to bring to Brunei.

Friends are coming over in the upcoming week. They are bunch of crazy makcikquarters with their crazy and kecohrable attitude. Cant wait !

And Yes! i managed to borrow two books from the library y'day. That make it looks like a complete week!

** cheers **

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Tuesday, sounded better.

Today, tmmrw and the day after, im still unsure.
I BELIEVE , it's gonna be good. YES!

I need to go down to the library..... kinda badly.
Im running out of reading materials.
I need to read to gain back my sanity.

The house is still in tip-top condition. Yayyy!

If not becos of this coming Saturday and Sunday ( Hari Raya open house), i reckon, im done with the visitings.

On other note, my mom is going Brunei in early November and my sis maternity leave is over by end of this month....so that means, i have to be a temporary babysitter to my almost 3mth old newphew, Satria Riza Maulana. He's so yummy gummy to cuddle and soooo gerammmmm to kissy and play with. The kids getting all excited to help out in babysitting.
Ahhhh, i just love the smell of babies..........so sweet and sour kinda thing.

Did i hear the words marukku ?? Yikes ! Deepavali is coming.............another set of preparations!

Monday, October 22, 2007

It's Monday ..............!

The morning hasnt been good *sigh*

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

The Eid celebrations, visitings and cousins, families coming over , have been great so far. :)

Everyone... has been on a cheerful mood with lots of laughters , conversations ...and catching up on each other. Ive been feasting myself with ketupats, lontong , briyani, rendang, sambal goreng , ayam masak merah and stuff that expand my waistline *burrppss* , so, on Monday, i decided to fast...!
Then, on Tuesday, i decided to eat , cos, i know there'll be sinfully spread at kak Hana's place...and i didnt want to miss that .... hehehee.
Today, is the 2nd day of my trying to complete the 6 days sunnah fasting,.. and, i reckon i have to give way to the upcoming weekends, cos, im soooo going visiting.

I have another lightbulb moment with R, y'day. I feel wonderful each time i talked to her.
She gave me that Wham ! and make me realised things that ive never thot i am guilty of.
I began to see things that i have been neglecting all these while.
Acknowledgement is important , a pat on the shoulder at least...make someone feel good.

It's still a long road ahead, but like the saying goes .........

A journey of a thousand miles , starts with a first step.

PS: Yes! my house is still in HariRaya condition.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Last nite, since hubby is around to have iftar with us at home, i stormed my kitchen by cooking rice with black pepper prawns, kailan w oyster sauce, tempura prawns , mee hoon and jemput2 pisang . We had sparkling grape juice and some fruits for desserts.

My hubby seemed to be enjoying the food...(since, it's hardly for him to be around joining us for iftar due to work).
Each and everytime i see my complete family members sitting on the dining table, i feel so blessed.

Well, it's just a day left and then Ramadan is leaving us. :(
It's been challenging but somehow, im beginning to see some lights.
I wont speak too soon thou, but I BELIEVE it's coming.

We plan to hv iftar at the mosque tmrw, do our prayers and welcome the Takbir , but still uncertain yet, cos, hubby might have to attend some function.

I have this sebak feeling everytime, i hear the Takbir, especially during the eve . I get very emotional and tears will just flow down my cheeks. A lot of things playing in my mind, i'll miss Ramadan, i miss those who have left us , and there's so many wat if's..................

Oh! ALLAH please grant me, to meet the next Ramadan.

The next emotional part, will be the seek forgiveness...especially to my parents. I can see my mom, is getting old and weak , but she has the strength/energy that i dont think i have.
My dad is a great person...eventhou, we did not express our feelings of love (which we obviously dont practise) , like i always do to my kids and vice versa, i'll always heart my parents till the end of time!

This year Eid, is just like the last....very simple affairs for us. I bought just couple of new clothings for the kids and some we just recycled. Kids, getting excited...cos, after tmrw they can eat all their heart out...hehee kids will always be kids.
Y'day they helped to put in the duit raya in the sampul. I know they cant wait for their duit collections... heheh. I was just like them too, when i was a kid...but i guess , kids nowadays are much more privilige in many ways.

Lastly, i would like to wish every one & Muslims around the world...

Eid Mubarrak.
May ALLAH give you peace
Have a Blessed Eid.

Ku susun sepuluh jari, Mohon ampun dan maaf jika ada salah dan silap.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Yikes ! i oversleept this morning. I woke up only to realise that it's 0530hrs !!!
My alarm did not work. Or probably i forgot to set the time last nite. !!

ni sumer gara2 the last episode of Hikmah !

This is wat happend when mom did not wake up the whole family did not not have their sahur .

Kids left school without eating sahur and i hope they are able to focus on their exams tis morning.
Its only a couple of days, since i try to practise the act of being positive. So far it has been working................ i spoke my son's tutor y'day and relate to her some of my concern. I told her abt positive vibes , positive thinking and positive energy...she kinda agreed with the flow of positivity and law of attraction.

After speaking with R & S the other day, i realised that i have lots of negative baggage in me. This is really no good ! I shld be changing my inner thots fm now on. Its really hard , but as the saying goes, practise makes perfect . No pain no gain. All i need to do is to BELIEVE that i CAN do it !

To BELIEVE in yourself is very important. S , is a good aspiration for me. After getting to know her just recently and talking to her, i have to say that she's a strong lady. Her hubby passed away last April and she is left alone with 4 children on her own. I admire her courage, her determination to stay focus on wat she is left now and she got great learning spirit.

R , on the other hand is such a motivator with a bubbly personality. She gave me that lightbulb moment. Slowly i began to peel my weaknesses. I am filled with guilts but situation somehow made me do things that im not suppose to. I have to wake up from now on. I need that kind of morale booster. I BELIEVE everything happend for a reason, and I BELIEVE i can change it !

Monday, October 8, 2007

Im facing yet another BIG challenges during this holy month of Ramadan.

It happend abt 3 years ago too, but the challenges i faced was at a different level.

Two wonderful sisters, that i met at a certain place , have been giving me tips on how positive thinking can effect ones mind and thoughts. The positives vibes willl generally flow to people around us. This happens instinctively and on a subconscious level, through thoughts and feelings transference and through body language. People sense our aura and are affected by our thoughts.

Negative thoughts, words and attitude bring up negative and unhappy moods and actions. When the mind is negative, poisons are released into the blood, which cause more unhappiness and negativity. This is the way to failure, frustration and disappointment.

However, in order to turn the mind toward the positive, inner work and training are often required. Attitude and thoughts do not change overnight.

I need that badly....i have to help myself first !

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

The house is so in a berserak state right now. I dont know why , but im soooo not in the mood to clean up.

I feel so tired mentally. Im not in the mood for Eid , well... probably not yet. I used to get excited whenever i hear Hari Raya songs playing on the radio, but somehow, it's not so much the case anymore.
I havent got anythings for the kids and for myself...except one baju kurung, that my mom sewed for me.

I dont deny the fact that i love the spirit of siratulrahhim amongst the family, when they come to visit or vice versa. The sinful food galore and stuff alike, which u can never find during other days...is just simply fabulous!

Well, we've come to almost the end to Ramadan. Im not sure if i have done enuf this year. Inside me, i feel so sad that Ramadan will be leaving us , soon. There's so many hidden blessings during this beautiful month. The last 10 days of Ramadan is coming...most of us knows the virtures behind The Night of Power. My hubby and just few of his good friends, have made plans to do Qiamullail (in a mosque) this weekend...insya allah.

Im planning to stay up during these odd nites (as much as i possibly can) . I know it's gonna be challenging...but i with ALLAH's help nothing is impossble !

There's so much things i want to ask ALLAH.
Sometimes, i feel ashamed of myself , but i know ALLAH is the Most Compassionate and Most Merciful.

I dont want to "waste" the little time that HE has given me , during this holy month, cos, there's no guarantee that we'll be able to meet the next Ramadan . Infact, we dont even know if we are able to meet Syawal .

Ramadan is like a treasure chest, with so many beautiful things inside for those who is willing to look for it !