Im not too sure about my feelings lately.
Im experiencing these...happy + sad + anxious + worried ,all at the same time.
A lot of things boogled in my mind.
Im happy that,soon, my hubby is gonna be stationed back in Spore.
Things are looking pretty much positive,as far as his work here is concerned...probably occasional travelling around the globe is still needed.
Im used to that,anyway.
It was more than 3years of me juggling with the whole domestic stuff all on my own..so it's just abt time, enuf of me being a "single parent".
Im sad , on certain issues that i somehow havent been able to solve.
I feel helpless and hopeless, at times.
It's really tiring, but i cant give up.
The process is lengthy..but i have hope.
It hurts sometimes..but i have ALLAH to cry on.
September is coming, with the new procedures, i hope im able to see changes.
Im feeling anxious and worried , this is such a norm for me when kids exams are coming..like next week.
Im wishing for the best.
Am i getting old...or am I getting older ?
Or izzit becos, i see my kids growing too fast.
Especially this month, since both of them are turning 11yo and 8yo respectively.
I feel the choked inside me.
I reckon,only a mother can feel this.
I just cannot describe it.
Life is a duty, that i have to perform it.
Life is a goal, that i havent score it.......yet !