Tuesday, February 26, 2008

1.The story began when I was a child;I was born as a son of a poor family.Even for eating, we often got lack of food.Whenever the time for eating, mother often gave me her portion of rice.While she was removing her rice into my bowl,she would say "Eat this rice, son. I'm not hungry".That was Mother's First Lie

2.When I was getting to grow up,the persevering mother gave her spare time for fishing in a river nearour house,she hoped that from the fishes she got,she could gave me a little bit nutritious food for my growth.After fishing, she would cook the fishes to be a fresh fish soup,which raised my appetite. While I was eating the soup,mother would sit beside me and eat the rest meat of fish,which was still on the bone of the fish I ate.My heart was touched when I saw it.I then used my chopstick and gave the other fish to her.But she immediately refused it and said "Eat this fish, son.I don't really like fish."That was Mother's Second Lie.

3.Then, when I was in Junior High School,to fund my study,mother went to an economic enterprise to bring some used-matches boxesthat would be stuck in.It gave her some money for covering our needs.As the winter came,I woke up from my sleep and looked at my mother who was still awoke,supported by a little candlelight and within her perseverance shecontinuedthe work of sticking some used-matches box.I said, "Mother, go to sleep, it's late,tomorrow morning you still have to go for work." Mother smiled and said "Go to sleep,dear. I'm not tired."That was Mother's Third Lie.

4.At the time of final term,mother asked for a leave from her work in order to accompany me.While the daytime was coming and the heat of the sun was starting toshine,the strong and persevering motherwaited for me under the heat of the sun's shine for several hours.As the bell rang, which indicated that the final exam had finished,mother immediately welcomed me and poured me a glass of tea that she had prepared before in a cold bottle.The very thick tea was not as thick as my mother's love,which was much thicker. Seeing my mother covering with perspiration,I at once gave her my glass and asked her to drink too.Mother said "Drink, son. I'm not thirsty!".That was Mother's Fourth Lie.

5.After the death of my father because of illness,my poor mother had to play her role as a single parent.By held on her former job, she had to fund our needs alone.Our family's life was more complicated. No days without sufferance.Seeing our family's condition that was getting worse,there was a nice uncle who lived near my house came to help us,either in a big problem and a small problem.Our other neighbors who lived next to us saw that our family's life wasso unfortunate,they often advised my mother to marry again. But mother,who was stubborn, didn't care to their advice,she said "I don't need love."That was Mother's Fifth Lie.

6.After I had finished my study and then got a job,it was the time for my old mother to retire.But she didn't want to; she was sincere to go to the marketplace everymorning,just to sell some vegetable for fulfilling her needs.I, who worked in the other city, often sent her some money to help herin fulfilling her needs,but she was stubborn for not accepting the money.She even sent the money back to me.She said "I have enough money."That was Mother's Sixth Lie.

7.After graduated from Bachelor Degree,I then continued my study to Master Degree.I took the degree, which was funded by a company through a scholarshipprogram,from a famous University in America .I finally worked in the company. Within a quite high salary,I intended to take my mother to enjoy her life in America .But my lovely mother didn't want to bother her son,she said to me "I'm not used to."That was Mother's Seventh Lie.

8.After entering her old age,mother got a flank cancer and had to be hospitalized.I, who lived in miles away and across the ocean,directly went home to visit my dearest mother.She lied down in weakness on her bed after having an operation.Mother, who looked so old, was staring at me in deep yearn.She tried to spread her smile on her face;even it looked so stiff because of the disease she held out.It was clear enough to see how the disease broke my mother's body,thus she looked so weak and thin.I stared at my mother within tears flowing on my face.My heart was hurt, so hurt, seeing my mother on that condition.But mother, with her strength, said "Don't cry, my dear.I'm not in pain.
"That was Mother's Eight Lie.After saying her eighth lie, She closed her eyes forever!"

"love them as if there's no tomorrow "

Thursday, February 21, 2008

  • I tink im having one of the mendak moment, where ive so many things to write, but i dunno how to put things in writing..(hope this make sense).

  • Y'day , around 7am, my bestfrend called, to check if i wanna meet her for breakfast....hmmm, dgn lincah kodok, i showered,changed, and met her at Sengkang by 7.45am. I dont fly....i drove, hence that makes life easier for me to be abled to make it on time.

  • Simple $2 breakfast at McD, was soooo heavenly peaceful (minus the kids), i tell ya ! We never fail to laugh ourselves silly whenever we meet. We talked abt things ...sometimes same ol' things over and over again w/o getting sick of it........yeap, that 's wat deprieved housemakers like us will do sometimes...haha

  • Anyhoo....after our marketing and gallivanting spree for that few hours of "freedom", we parted at 11.30am. On the way home, along the TPE, listening to some music on the radio,halfway before i reached my estate, i thot i saw an old man crossing the road......like seriously, in a bright day light....along the expressway ! He looked like a haggard,shabbily dressed old man with a stick........walking feebly trying to get across. Ive no third eyes, thank u veri much ! Maybe i was imaging things (which is rarely,esp when driving).........but really, i saw the old feebly man, crossing and then vanished ! i didnt knw where, but gone ! Everthing happened so briefly, actually. Ive no time to think of wats not...etc

  • Surprisingly, i didnt feel scared or anything like dat (maybe bcos its daytime)...wat's playing in mind at that instant was, can he make it on time, to get across........it's dangerous. !

  • When i reached home, i totally forgot all abt it...........till now.
    Who can he be? , Its broad day light ,ley !

Friday, February 15, 2008

Yesterday.......went for an uplanned dinner, saw many girls with gifts n roses, later , i realised it was V-Day, no wonder !

Today ........ same ol' chores, except for some changes.

Tommorow.......for seeking knowledge.

Yesterday + Today + Tommorrow = T/I/M/E
~ Just 5 minutes ~

While at the park one day, a woman sat down next to a man on a bench near a playground. “That’s my son over there,” she said, pointing to a little boy in a red sweater who was gliding down the slide.

“He’s a fine looking boy,” the man said. “That’s my son on the swing in the blue sweater.” Then, looking at his watch, he called to his son. “What do you say we go, Todd?”Todd pleaded, “Just five more minutes, Dad. Please? Just five more minutes.” The man nodded and Todd continued to swing to his heart’s content. Minutes passed and the father stood and called again to his son. “Time to go now?”
Again Todd pleaded, “Five more minutes, Dad. Just five more minutes.” The man smiled and said, “O.K.”

“My, you certainly are a patient father,” the woman responded.

The man smiled and then said, “My older son Tommy was killed by a drunk driver last year while he was riding his bike near here. I never spent much time with Tommy and now I ‘d give anything for just five more minutes with him. I’ve vowed not to make the same mistake with Todd. He thinks he has five more minutes to swing.

The truth is, I get five more minutes to watch him play.”

Monday, February 11, 2008

If you have spare time, people..........go and watch The Kite Runner. Im glad despite the squeezy for time, i managed to spare few hours of my Saturday, together w my bestfrend and cousin, to catch the movie.

The movie was simply great but i thot the book was better. Nonetheless, i (we) really enjoyed it...
I cried buckets and best frend who hasnt read the book (yet), weeped and sobbed silently , and if she didnt control herself, i think she would have wailed. ! hahaha

Monday, February 4, 2008

The weekends were fruitful ( yay! i got oranges ;), i must admit. My Saturday, class has started, and since we have the Youth class too,at the same place on the same time (only different classroom), it's a good opporturnity for my son to tag along...Stories and lessons fm the Quran...his first lesson, i tink he enjoyed it.

Sunday,again, three of us (hubby,my son and me) attended an interesting 2hr talk abt "How to Live Your Live Powerfully".. It's quite lengthy to explain...i did take down some notes during the session. I would conclude , it was empowering,mind boggling and an eye opener. The session has touched, moved and inspired me in a way or another. It did to my hubby and i reckon my son too...eventhou, halfway i could see him doing some drawings **roll eyes**

It's a sooner or later thing that my son , is growing into a teenager. It's a phase of life. Im just taking a step each day to prepare him abt wat life is all abt. The importance of balancing the both worlds...etc. It's challenging n tough especially in this period of time.....anyhow, i foresee, i just cant be standing on the grandstand to see the outcome, i have to be on the field in order to see results. Im thankful, that hubby has realised his "missing out actions" all these while, prior to his jobs n decided to be here more often. I dun blame him, the situation is such...eventhou, it suffocated me at times. I have come to stage of breakingdown,cos, its not an easy feat for me to handle domestic issues single handedly while he's away most times. But i survived, somehow !

On the other hands, i cannot imagine, that my kids are growing so fast. If only time can be stalled, i wish they still forever be wat they are now. I know they drive me nuts at times, but the fact is I dun want them to grow....not yet! I'll definitely missed those days.........Come to think of it, im getting old myself. It's time to creat a new vision in my life.!